:'(

Baby... I miss you and wish that you were still here by my side. I was looking at pictures of you tonight and it made me miss you even more. I'm a totally different person without you. Apparently i'm more angry and emotional. I'm mad at you most of the time and the rest i'm just mad at my self. I'm mad that I don't get to spend time with you anymore. I'm mad that we missed out on all of our hopes and dreams. Most of all, I'm mad that I wont get to share my life with you and experience things with you. You're my everything, my life revolved around you. So being without you, where does that leave my life. I'm stuck in this awful rut that I don't know how to get out of. How'd you get me out of it? You seemed to be the only person who could calm me down in an instant. The one person who loved me no matter what. The only person who didn't judge me when I made a mistake. I thank heavenly father everyday for blessing me with you. I'm the luckiest girl alive because I'm your wife, well now your widow. You were and still are my pride and joy. I'm so proud of the life you lived. You were the smartest person I know. You loved learning new topics and researching to find more information. You made me a better person just by your presence. I LOVE YOU and can't wait to see you again. Beef, please be with me and watch over me. These next few weeks are going to be super hard. I believe that you being with me will make them better. Love you again and may gad be with you 'til we meet again.