Well Brian, I don't know what happened or what you did, but I woke up this morning with this strong feeling that the time has come. The past 6 months have totally changed who I've become. The fun loving, easy to get along with Ashley has disappeared. I honestly think she died that day with you. Brian, I love you more than I can say. Honestly I can say at this point, I lost the love of my life, my soul mate. You aren't gone, you're with me every day and I know where I can be with you. Yesterday in the temple you were with us. I didn't want to leave, but in the end. You'll never physically be with me. I can't live my life being a miserable and angry person. We all know that it'll end in misery and I can't have that. In the end, my main goal is to be able to spend eternity with you. That's I plan to do. I LOVE YOU BRIAN!!! This life definitely isn't the same without you. I'll defend you until the end.