Hey Babe.... Sorry it's been a few days. My emotions are on a wild roller coaster. It's gone from sadness, to irritated, to anger and now numbness. I miss you more and more everyday. I miss to touch of your arms wrapped around me when I sleep. I miss staring at your beautiful face when you slept. You're the light of my life and now I'm stuck in the dark. I'm trying to figure out what to do with my life at this stage. Today was the first day when I didn't have someone watching over me 24/7. Please watch over me and guide me to the right path. You're my guardian angel now and I'm still the luckiest girl in the world because you're still in my life. I LOVE YOU BABY and MAY GOD BE WITH YOU TIL WE MEET AGAIN. *MUAH*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!!! 28 years ago you were brought onto this earth and for the last 2 I got to call you mine. Later today I'll be celebrating your life with our family wishing you were here. I know that you'll be smiling down from heaven knowing that we love you. The services yesterday were very beautiful and I hope your proud of how I planned it. Thank you for keeping me strong and helping me talk even though I was scared. Polo stood beside me and I felt you on the other side. I had my earthly protector and my spiritual protector helping me along. I hope you know how much I love you and how much I miss you every second of the day. My life is a mess without you here to hold me through these hard times. Please watch out for your family, especially Dad. I know that he's wasn't feeling well today. I want you to know that there was so many people there who loved you and knew that you are an amazing man. You touched so many peoples lives and I wish you could've seen that. I'm exhausted so I'm off to bed, meet me in my dreams beef. I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH AND CAN'T WAIT TO SEE YOU AGAIN.

Being with you....

Hey Baby... these past few days have been the worst days of my life. The only time I've felt peace and comfort is when I was with you and when you were with me at the temple. Tomorrow I'm going to need you helping me along because I can't do it without your presence. I love you with all my heart and now I feel like I'm burying a piece of it with you. I want to thank you for making me a better person and giving me your love. Thank you for always protecting me and never letting anyone bring me down. I will miss you beautiful brown eyes, watching you sleep in the morning, and your contagious smile. I'll never meet anyone else comparable to you. I was a lost little girl when we started dating and now that we've been together for over two years, you've helped me grow into a strong, responsible woman. Please be with me and help me get through tomorrow and I hope your proud of how I planned your day. You touched so many peoples lives and it's sad that you didn't get to see it here on earth. I'll write you more tomorrow or friday baby. Sending my love to you in heaven and I can't wait to see you in my dreams. I LOVE YOU.

We're forever....

Baby.... I want you to know that I love you so very much. I know that where ever you are, you're reading this. I never told you, but you're my BEST FRIEND. I never truly knew what love was until you found me. Unfortunately we're separated, but OUR family is forever. We made promises to each other from that special day until the end and I intend to keep every last one. I need you with me every step of the way, just like you were here. I still need you to protect me, you always kept me safe and now I'm scared. I'll go to our special place every week and hopefully you'll meet me there, that can be our weekly date. Mom and Brandi bought me a sign today that states "I Chose My Love and I Love My Choice". Well It really should say "My Love Chose Me and I Love his Choice". Baby, I know you're in a better place and there's no more pain. I'm comforted to know that your with our Heavenly Father and I'm patiently waiting to see you again. As the most famous line in Titanic goes.... "I'll never let go". I know you weren't a fan, but I WILL NEVER LET GO. You are forever in my heart and every step I take in life, I'll take it for you. I have so much more to say but my heart and mind are all a blur... i'll write you more and more baby. I LOVE YOU BEEF.